I am feeling like an athlete who has trained for years and is finally at the start line. I feel prepared and confident that I can cope with what is ahead of me. But then I read the blogs of those like Steve and Ann and the struggles of others who have started out on this journey and suddenly I feel nervous and useless. What if I haven't prepared enough? What if I fail at the first hurdle?
I am great at making lists and creating more lists. 'Doing' always seems a bit harder than just thinking. But the reality of what lies ahead of me is now becoming very real. What strikes me as I ease into 'doing' is just how organised I need to be. No more rushing around without thinking ahead.
My other concern is the need to be clear about what Simplify means for me. I have been on a journey to simplify my life for God for a few years now. For me it is not just about doing everything as cheaply as possible and being 'poor'. I am doing this because I believe we need to live sustainably, ethically, healthily and in a balance of rhythm with our environment and relationships. So I fear I am expecting too much as will get this all wrong. How can I create time if I am meal planning all the time?
Of course my biggest fear is the way I will be ridiculed by the media and others in light of the stories about MPs over the last year. People assume a lot about our lifestyles based on their knowledge of a few headlines and high profile cases. My normal family life is just that - very normal. But we will see as I cut back how normal my definition of normal actaully is!
So a sense of overconfidence and fear are gripping me at the moment. I will start doing something practical to ease the tension. Time to do my meal planning, get out the tupperware and my flask.
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